it is the name of a beetle

it's the name of a ladybug, "hippodamia convergens." it's the ladybug you usually see in the garden. they are out there looking for unsuspecting aphids. she asked, "why do you know that?" it is the usual question. but no matter. it is just fun to catch people off guard for fun sometimes. and besides she is a good sport. she is too cute, but a good sport nevertheless.

i can be so easily distracted by people like her. likeable people...what is up with them? sometimes i find myself giving people like that a hard time, i am not sure what that accomplishes. maybe it gives them a chance to tell me to stop it which would help keep me out of potential trouble.

ok i'm rambling. maybe it's because i'm afraid of what i might say to myself. and even more, i might believe it. shit. this has to stop. it's not the coffee really. i haven't had to much.